Planting Seeds with Surrender

We surrender more deeply by letting go of where we think we need to be in this moment and instead simply being where we are.

Last night, I made peace with a situation that I had been allowing to drain me. I give thanks to this wonderful Connection Field community and those present on the host call yesterday who witnessed me in a moment of tenderness and held me in the field of love. This morning I woke up with this quiet sense of peace in my heart, which was gratefully received.

As I collected myself to begin my day, I felt something pulling me, calling me, to surrender in a deeper way than I have before. I allowed myself to be still with this, to hold myself in the moment, where I asked the question, What does it mean for me to surrender more than this?

Soften... soften... I heard whisper within me.

I felt into my body, and relaxed into the tension I was still carrying. Instead of trying to change the feeling, I let myself soften into it. I let myself move through the morning while feeling into my body, continuously feeling into my gut, and intentionally bringing softness to any anxious feelings still present.

At some point early in the day, I "happened" across this post on Instagram by @wiseheartspiritual

There's a quiet kind of breaking that doesn't come with noise or drama, just a moment where your spirit whispers, "I can't hold this anymore", and something ancient in you says, "good, now we can begin".

So many of us are taught to grip tighter when life shakes us, to push harder when we feel lost. But what if the real transformation begins when we soften, unclench, and simply allow the moment to be what it is? The path of spiritual discipline isn't a quick escape from pain, but a steady returning to the altar of presence, again and again. We train our awareness like a sacred muscle, not to bypass suffering but to become spacious enough to hold it with grace. Devotion is not an aesthetic, it's a rhythm of showing up for your own soul, even when the world spins too fast or feels too loud. We weren't meant to carry it all alone. Through surrender, through stillness, we start to recognize the sacred choreography behind it all. This is the deeper work of consciousness, remembering the truth beneath our stories, the light beneath our striving, and the divine timing that only reveals itself once we stop resisting the now. - wiseheartspiritual

This landed perfectly, I knew that not only was this exactly what I needed to read, but it was also confirmation for the moment I was in. So I continued to soften, I continued to return my awareness to the present moment. I felt the peace in my body. I felt the collective field hold me. I smiled and chose to come back to myself, I chose to return to my deeper truth. I chose to let go of the burden I had been holding that was never mine to carry.

For some, the word surrender is a difficult one to hear or embrace. For me, this word is a gift; the action of letting go and letting dissolve what is not needed is so very precious. That is why this coming Saturday, April 19th, I will be devoting the Radiant Heart Meditation Workshop at 10:30 am EDT to this topic. During the session, we will dive into what it means to surrender to life and to surrender the seeds of intention we have planted. If this word has been hard to receive in the past, this will be an opportunity to give it a new meaning. This session will be an embodied experience, with some community conversation and a longer meditation. If you would like to join, be sure to RSVP here.

In the meantime, I invite you to take some time to connect with your heart and contemplate what it means for you to truly surrender.

So Much Love, Khadijih SoulJourney Wellness | YouTube | PAWS